Post Vacation Blues

What is it about vacation that makes us as human beings so happy? Is it the all day relaxation? Is it the lack of worries or stress? Is it all the unhealthy eating that we don’t feel guilty about? Well, whatever the reason may be, vacation is certainly one of the most wonderful things in life. Perhaps that’s why you feel so freaking depressed when its all over.

The aforementioned luxuries are no more and it is back to the world of routines, schedules, and normalcy. Now we are obliged to actually get up and accomplish something with our days. We must go back to work, because two weeks off  was already pushing it. We now feel pressure to eat healthy and workout; things that are magically forgotten while on vacation.

That is what I am suffering from right now. I just feel like a big blob with motivation to do absolutely nothing. Its nice to be home after two weeks away, but I’m not completely happy about it. While I am not looking forward to returning to my daily routine, I am mostly just sad that vacation is over. I had such an amazing time with my family and Tucker, I am just really sad for it to be done. It went by way too fast, and the summer is going by even faster, which scares me.

But I still have over a month until my summer is over, so I won’t get too upset. But until I’m over my post vacation blues, I’ll just feel sorry for myself and constantly look over these pictures, the best from the vacation!

Not much to say today, but I hope you all are enjoying your summers! Until next time…

xoxo Katie Lou

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That Others Shall Live

It’s July 1st, which means Independence Day is right around the corner! I think we all are feeling a bit patriotic this time of year, so I’ll take this opportunity to discuss something a bit patriotic, and also very close to my heart.

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My boyfriend Tucker and I have been together for almost two years now. We went to rival high schools, where we both ran cross country and track. When were 16 years old, we met at Blue Ridge Running Camp. We immediately hit it off, and it didn’t take long for Tucker to ask me to be his girlfriend. And of course, I said yes. Since then, we haven’t gone more than a week without seeing each other. We have experienced some amazing memories together. Our senior year was amazing, filled with unforgettable memories. Cross country, homecoming, trips to the beach, two proms, and graduation. It was such a fun year. We both went to the University of South Carolina the next year, where we grew even closer. Being at USC was hard for me, and I went through a lot of struggles, but he was always there for me. He always made things better.

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But now, things are really going to change. Tucker is currently in the process of enlisting in the United States Air Force. Sometime in the next few months, he will be off to San Antonio, Texas. The military has been Tucker’s biggest dream since he was a child. And while he loved USC, he just felt disconnected, like he wasn’t where he needed to be. He realized that he needed to pursue his lifelong dream of the military.

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Tucker has talked about the military since we first started dating, and I was always pretty blunt about it. I told him I didn’t want him to join and would never support him in that decision. I was too scared of what might happen to him, too scared of how much I would miss him, too scared to let him go.

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We went to USC and as time went on, I could tell that Tucker was not happy there. I knew where his heart really was. It was then I realized how selfish I was really being. I was holding him back from his dream just because I was scared… I knew that I would miss him, and I knew that I was also be worried about his safety, but I knew that joining the military would make Tucker happy. And at that point, I really just wanted him to be happy. I apologized to Tucker for not supporting him prior to this, and I gave him my approval and told him that I would stand by him in any decision he made. He did a lot of research and talked to a lot of different people, and he ultimately decided on the Air Force.

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Now Tucker is very happy, and extremely excited for his future. He is attempting to join a special operations group, Air Force Pararescue. They are essentially a rescue group that operates in combat situations; they save and protect other members of the military. That includes other Special Forces groups: Navy Seals, Army Rangers, etc. It’s a very important, intense, and sometimes dangerous job. I know Tucker will be great at it.

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People ask me all the time how I feel about the whole ordeal. I figured I might as well put it all out in the open now! I’m not going to kid myself, or anybody else. It has been hard, and I know it will continue to be. I am really scared about what might happen to Tucker. I am going to miss him so much, it makes my heart hurt. Sometimes, I have really selfish thoughts about it. I feel like he is picking the military over me. I don’t understand why he would choose to leave me. Sometimes, I cry. I get really upset, mad, and just sad about it. It is hard… But its totally worth it. I am absolutely overwhelmed by his courage. I admire this sacrifice that he is making for our country. I respect his hard work and determination. But mostly, I am proud! I am so incredibly proud of Tucker. Not only for his sacrifice, but for following his heart and choosing a path not many would have chosen. I am extremely proud to call this amazing brave man my boyfriend. While at times I do get sad, seeing how happy he is makes me happy, too. We are both following our dreams, me at JMU pursuing a teaching career and him in the Air Force. That’s the way it should be. And no matter where we are in the world, we will always be there for each other.

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We wouldn’t live in such an amazing country if it weren’t for people like Tucker, and the other thousands of brave men and women who have made the same decision. And this Fourth of July, I will appreciate that more than ever. This next journey may be different than where we have been before, but I am excited for what the future holds. I can’t wait to see the amazing things Tucker will accomplish in the Air Force. One thing is for sure, I know he will continue to make me proud 🙂

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Happy Father’s Day

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Today is the day we celebrate the father figures in our lives. Maybe it began as a ploy to raise Hallmark cards sales, but it has become a sincere and beloved holiday for many American families. In our current technological age, it has become somewhat tradition for everyone to post pictures of their fathers on every social media outlet available. I participate in this for pretty much every occasion celebrating someone in my family, because I love digging through old pictures and I believe in giving credit where credit is due.  Anyway, on this Father’s Day I have seen several people complaining about the sharing of photos; bothered by the photos taking up the majority of their News Feed. Honestly, people complaining about this really annoys me, and I’ll tell you why.

Father’s Day is one of the few days of the year that is all about love. It is defined as a celebration of “fatherhood”, which is one of the purest forms of love. Romantic relationships and friendships are never guaranteed, but fatherhood is something that never changes. Not everyone may have a biological father around, but most of us have a father figure in some form. Those figures are always there for us, we may get annoyed by their constant worries, but its all in love. I believe that some of the most selfless people in this world are fathers.

So when I see all of my Facebook friends posing with their fathers, it makes me smile. Today when I scroll up and down my News Feed all I see are smiles, hugs and most importantly, love. Our world experiences tragedies everyday, and while that does not stop on Father’s Day, it is so nice to see all the love that exists that we sometimes forget about.

So yeah, maybe this holiday was superficial in its roots. But look at what its become! Isn’t it nice to see the influence that so many people’s fathers have? I am extremely lucky to have been blessed with my amazing father, who I need to go spend some time with 🙂 So I’ll wrap this us with a message to all you naysayers, try not to be so negative when you see the last few father pictures that graze Facebook tonight. Don’t you at least find a little joy in it all? Well if not, here’s one more to piss you off.

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Happy Father’s Day to you, Daddy! I love you!!

xoxo Katie